I may be doing things that you dislike; or rather things that will make you jealous. But that doesnt mean, i love you no more. Sometimes, i still will stop & turn back. But i know, you'll nv be back. Thats why i keep on walking. It takes two hands t clap, so it wont work if its only me loving you.

Cos i still miss you every now and then. </3

As predicted, i received bad news when i was in Ion justnow. Gna accompany Mummy to batok on 31st, for certain reasons. Like what sia, i dont feel like going. Im scared i'll cry. :( Whatsmore, you aint with me. And i really dontwant th thing to ruin my whole countdown! :( Im really afraid lor. But i cant possibly leave mummy alone, rightsxzxz? ): Wah i really feel like crying lor, MF! Why must all these come to me!!! )':

Okay, great day today! Successfully, i slept th moment i ly-ed onto my bed. Wokeup @ around 11+am, text Jenna some-things & went back t sleep again. Awoke @ 12plus, near 1pm. Mummy got breakfast for me. ^^ Nicenice! Ate, onlined, then went t do my stuffs. As usual, Lin came my house again; to wait for me. Always & Forever that long. :/ Hah. Prepared then went Jeast t meet Jenna, she was lateeeeee! Finally not me! *evil laughters* Headed Orchard to meet Sist, Jiexiang & Yilong. :) Went Food Opera for late lunch. Know what?, I went Ion just for that lunch!!!!!! Freaking waste my time! But nvm, fellowshipped though. Went off to Kranji afterthat, w Jx, Lin & Sist. The rest went t catch a movie. Infact, two of them only. ^^ Hahaha, someone's gonna kill me when she sees this!

Reached Kranji, met Weiming, Peter, Yuxian, Joy & Shihui, then went JB! Wheeeeeeee, Peter's treat t th CGCs! Ahhhahahaha, it was certainly a good one! We ate alot, talked alot, joke alot, played alot, had alot of fun AND LASTLY, love Peter alot!! Thanks for being such a great leader to us! And you'd inspired me alot, esp in my spiritual walk w God. I really learnt alot of thngs from you, and iam still learning! :) Seafood is really nice~ Yummy. Sadly, i dont have th pictures BUT, trust me!, You must go & try! Tastyyyyy. :B Hah. Afterthat cabbed back t Citysquare, walked around there for a short while, then took bused t Kranji, and homed. Sk drove us back from there! Hehehe. On msn now w quite a number of people, and one of them is Jianwei. Yeah, a very good brother of mine. Talking about how we knew eachother all these, really reminded me of all th memories we had tgt, w th rest as well. Jianwei is now back, Guoan also. Yuyao, what about you? I know, and i have confidence in you, that you'll be back soon. :) I still remember th time we all celebrated birthday for you. We went vivo, then t Jwest. I know you remember also. Whatever it is, Yuyao, we'll all wait for you kay. I missed th times we spent in th past. Come back soon!!

Today was a good day, for me. Yet bad day as well. I really dontknow if i should go on th 31st. ); I know i must go, but i dwanna leave tears behind. The feeling sucks alot! I dwanna cry infront of him also. Why must this be so complicated?, I really dont understand. I somehow do pity him, but what can i do. Should I call him _____?, Or uncle. Should I even address him? Look at him? Smile at him? ); I really dontknow what to do. Its rare t see me being so helpless, not knowing what to do. :( Iam really gonna cry already lah! ))':

I told myself, on th next coming year, I must work harder. Not gonna skip school, not gonna do anymore bad things in sch, not gonna end up in th office. Come to th worst, i will go back to band as well. And yes, i wont scold anymore vulgarities, wont say anymore unpleasant things. Trust me, Im gonna change for th better. Lastly, I wont do things that will make me feel regretful. This will be one of my new year resolution. Oh, and, I dwanna feel helpless anymore. Bahbye. :'(((